Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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